oh where to begin... i have a million and one things to blog about. let me just say.. this last month has been crazy.. but wonderful.
well big milestone #1... i graduated high school. Praise the sweet Lord!
i am also preparing for Kenya in July... yes yes and yes!
i have UT orientation in a few weeks which only means that i am getting closer and closer to being in Austin.. probably my favorite city.
so that's the rundown of big events.. not to mention ten million things in between. But on to more important things... like big JC. o yes it always goes back to Jesus.
so my friend Lauren recently re-introduced me to this thing called GRACE. its a strange deal this "grace". it is completely irrational. it is not fair in anyway. it cannot be earned. it is free to all. it is the center of the Gospel.
i say she re-introduced GRACE to me because it seemed as if me and her both forgot about this beautiful idea... well not really an idea, but a reality we had simply disregarded. i realized that legalism in my life had begun to take the place of grace. For a short period i had started to become somewhat of a legalist.. which i would have never never have called myself... but it was true. and legalism resulted in judgement... which in turn resulted in my lack of ability to love others unconditionally... and before i knew it grace was no longer something i even understood (not that we ever truly can)... but better said, grace was something i didn't let myself experience because i was trying to be a saint by my own strength.
Legalism is such a terrible terrible cycle.. and a tiring one at that. Its an exhausting way to live. But GRACE... now grace... Grace is a most beautiful place to live. And by "living in grace" that does not mean living by license.. not in the least bit. It is realizing and accepting that I am a sinner just like my neighbor... i can never do anything to be better than my brother or sister... i can never do anything to be good enough for God... all i can do, is accept His Grace. And in that grace i am made clean.
GRACE.
i need you//
3 comments:
This was so refreshing to read! I have such a hard time comprehending the concept of grace most of the time. And btw .. I would like to hear about what you're doing in Kenya! I am getting involved with an organization that is sending it's first team to Kenya this year! Sounds like you have some really exciting stuff going on. Talk to ya soon! :)
i love you boo.
your an inspiration to me and my family. we thank God for you everyday.
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